Two days ago, I finally made the decision to block everyone on social media that I’m related to. (And anyone married to anyone I’m related to). There were no exceptions. At first I was afraid of blocking “the cool ones”. But in reality, information gets around to the toxic family members if the cool family members are in on it.
My biggest fear about blocking literally everyone was that if someday me and my boyfriend break up, then I won’t have anyone. This isn’t true tho. I have a lot of friends. And it’s not just my boyfriend that the toxic people in my family have a beef with. They don’t like my job, my living situation, the fact that I gave my dad cpr before he died (long story). It would still be an uphill battle to deal with them.
Then I realized that social media blocking does absolutely nothing for getting the toxic people out of my life. It does nothing at all. They’re still in contact with my mother, and I have to be in contact with my mom several times a day “or she’ll worry”. Which really gets on my nerves because if I worried that much about something or someone, I feel like there would be a mental health intervention.
Now that I realized that social media blocking does nothing, I feel horrible because I blocked about 50 “cool family members.” And if I unblock, I’ll have to request connections again and then they’ll know I blocked them.
Eventually I’ll get to where I want to be mental health wise.